My lowest point in a relationship

 

Just recently I have been disappointed with someone very closed with me. I have known her for quite long time. Become a good friend for each other. Have spent some time together regularly, not only for fun but also for sharing our views and become a good supporter to each other.

I do not know precisely the reason why she was mad at me at first. I tried to get an idea why she ignored and neglected me. I tried very hard to get an explanation. When she rejected my call for … I don’t remember how many times …I decided to stop. Then, I started to remember event by event and figured out the reason why she acted weirdly is probably because the man who has been very closed with her, started calling me and asking me for a date. If I may explain how this could happen, I would say that she was the one who introduced me to him. She was also the one who asked me to start the conversation with him. She even instructed me what kind of conversation that I might considering to speak with him. I did not know and did not expect that this man would continue calling me and asking to go out with.

One day when everything was pretty clear to me, I made a contact with her. She welcomed me and acted as if nothing was happened before. I was so surprised and had a deep thought about it. She was the one who did almost the talking and she sounded very happy, telling me about her new colleagues, new working environment and of course a new guy who used to be closed with me. I felt like … after this time … she put all of these things ahead of our relationship. I was extremely upset. And without realising it, my tears started falling down. It was the first time in our relationship, we had this conflict and in my side without knowing the reason she treated me that way (I’m still assuming till today). I felt disappointed, sad, angry, and … hurt.

Starting from that call, I decided not to contact her any longer. It seems like my heart is close for her, for any kind of relationship. I realised it was not an easy decision and also not easy to do that. But, everytime she calls me, I reluctantly pick up the phone. And when I finally picked up the phone, I spoke as little as I could. I do not reply for any invitation she made, not until now. Only simple congratulation when she was having birthday, a deep condolences when her relative was passed away and well done note for her achievement.

 

 

 

 

 

My first writing

I have been introduced this website by a friend of mine who loves to write and also possess excellent English. She informed and forced me to have my own blog in order to make a realization of my passion in writing (off the record: writing is one of my big passion in life among my other passionate). I have showed my interests to spare my time to explore what wordpress.com is. It is interesting reading other’s blog, learn and observe how everybody has a different variety of writing style. Of course, I learned a lot by reading other’s blog. I finally decided to sign up with this username though I have never come back to this website since then and have not activated my account yet. Then this friend of mine, keep reminding me to start my writing. She has never give up on me though my passion has become … I cannot put the right word here … but you might guess … not vanished but it’s not as big as I posses in the beginning. Days gone, months … I have been an observer of everything. And every time my observation is on going , there is a line comes up in my mind, just a simple idea and thought that might be worth to be something called ‘My story’ or ‘My writing’. 

I realize that I have postponed myself to become an excellent writer. I have delayed myself to practice. Regret all of those would result nothing.  So … this is me, here, in my first writing.

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